The depressed little Christian Love Guru

I am a christian and one summer 8 years ago when I was 16. I thought that it was my responsabilty "as Jesus", to care for my depressed friend, who had suicidal thoughts. I took on the personal responsiblity to make a suicidal person happyn, additionly I tried to be nice to bitter persons at work. They where all bottomless pits.

Not supprisingly I got depressed - me thinking this was my personal responsibility. I got dishearted and hatefull, and angry on God.

One night though I had changed my mind, laying in bed I prayed to God I said humbly: "Holy Spirit you are the only thing that could take me out of this deppression!". Then I fealt in my heart a bubbling love, and joy, and "butterflies".

In the time that followed, I finaly understood life is about letting God's love rub off on me. It was impossible to be as Jesus without God.

Jesus teaches not religion but about having an intimate relationship with God.

This relationship will have implications on what you do, as you become a more unselfish person, and this might come across as religious behaviour, but it's not. It is a matter of the heart and of overflowing love from God. It's not about me anymore, it's totally about God! I am in a 100% dependence on God!

How is it to encounter the one God's holy presence?

To meet with God and encounter Gods holiness is like a good balade or music solo that gives you shivers.. or like the intimacy between lovers.. But it's better! It something worth seeking out. It's like when you see a mystery make sense, or when you reach a crest on a hill and you can overlook a vista and witness incomparable beauty, it's like that but better, cause it's also followed by God's perfect love and tenderness. :)

Where should I then go to encounter God?
Everywhere, in nature, at home, in a church, whereever you can set things aside and start talking with God.. The importance is not the outside? But the inside the requirements:is a humble and sincere heart and faith like the mustard seed, because without that little seed of trust (faith), God can do nothing.. as it is the foundation of every start of a relationship..

But hey God is full of mysteries so he might meet you before you even turn to him. Why? Answer: is his love for his children..

But the thing stated above is just a general rule of thumb I have noticed. I think that a proud persons prayer more is likely to not reach answers, because it is humility that God is seeking and repentance from sin. Just read the God's word to us in the Bible:

Jeremiah 9:
23 Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom,
Let not the mighty man glory in his fmight,
Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;
24 But glet him who glories glory in this,
That he understands and knows Me, That I am the Lord, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth.
For in these I delight,” says the Lord.

Psalms 119:
21 You rebuke the proud—the cursed,
Who stray from Your commandments.

Isaiah
15 For thus says the High and Lofty One
Who inhabits eternity, rwhose name is Holy:
s“I dwell in the high and holy place,
tWith him who has a contrite and humble spirit,
uTo revive the spirit of the humble,
And to revive the heart of the contrite ones.
16 vFor I will not contend forever,
Nor will I always be angry;
For the spirit would fail before Me,
And the souls wwhich I have made.
17 For the iniquity of xhis covetousness
I was angry and struck him;
yI hid and was angry,
zAnd he went on 5backsliding in the way of his heart.
18 I have seen his ways, and awill heal him;
I will also lead him,
And restore comforts to him
And to bhis mourners.
19 “I create cthe fruit of the lips:
Peace, peace dto him who is far off and to him who is near,”
Says the Lord,
“And I will heal him.”
20 eBut the wicked are like the troubled sea,
When it cannot rest,
Whose waters cast up mire and dirt.

21 “There is no peace,”
Says my God, “for the wicked.”

For you who suffer under the joke of religion be it Islam or christian or something else of the sort of rigid religiousness and outward piousness but without encountering God's love, read the following verses from the bible who describes the true longing of God:

Psalm 51:16
16 For nYou do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it;
You do not delight in burnt offering.
17 oThe sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.

This is what God longs for someone with a gentle spirit to turn to him for help, we all need him in our iniquity (the word meaning not fitting the measure - falling short), this is when we come to a place of surrender and that we really can see that we can't fullfill any true standard of holiness in ourself but are in need of Gods help for salvation, and that being recieving the mercy and the ractifying death of christ (Son of God and man, and holy father in one) of cross, when he bled for our sins and our iniquities.

This is the moment of surrender that could lead us to a true and restored relationship with God.


And another intressting blogpost on where to encounter God?

Kristen FAQ - vanliga frågor till Gud?

Frågor och (mina) svar från:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stockholm-Sweden/STHLMs-fragor-till-Gud

Fråga: Varför finns det naturkatastrofer?

(Mitt tillägg: eller annat av människan icke-orsakat lidande så som sjukdomar och olyckor)

Mitt svar:
För att lidande kom in i världen när vi valde att gå vår egen (o i många fall egoistiska väg) bort från en relation med Gud och hans plan för oss, då kom lidande in i världen för att vi skulle vara medvetna om att vi var på fel väg och för att skipa rättvisa. Syndens lön är döden står det i Bibeln. Så antingen får vi välja våran död eller Jesus död på korset som avbetalnings alternativ på våra skulder (för vår synd). Kom ihåg att Gud är helig och att all ondska avskyr han även om det är i våra ögon i små portioner, om någon skulle vilja ha ihjäl någon men inte gör det för att den är rädd för att bli straffad är inte det lika illa som att mörda någon, då uppsåtet är det esakt lika..? Har vi inte alla avskytt folk till den graden att vi avskytt någon väldigt mkt? Är vi inte då alla syndare? Förtjänar vi verkligen himlen?

Fråga: Var fanns vi innan vi föddes?

Mitt svar: Tja, den tradionella svaret inom kristendomen är väl att man inte fanns till innan man skapades. Referat från boken psaltaren i Bibeln: "Du sammanvävde mig i moderslivet" O kanske är det ett "tråkigt" svar om man vill flumma loss men har man någon anledning att tro att livet fanns innan vi föddes.. jag tror inte det..


Fråga av Simon Lindholm:

Hur kommer det sig att Gud behöver pengar?

Filadelfia kyrkan människorna svarar:
STHLM:s frågor till Gud Gud behöver inte en spänn. Gud har allt han behöver. Men det du tänker på är säker att vi i kyrkan ofta uppmanar folk att ge pengar. Varför? För att kyrkan gör massa saker som kräver pengar. Vi har lokaler som vi samlas i som behöver underhållas. Det finns anställda pastorer som behöver lön. Vi i Filadelfia har ett stort socialt arbete, både lokalt i Sthlm och globalt runt om i världen. Barnhem, arbete med missbrukare etc som kräver pengar. Därför ber vi folk om pengar, precis som många andra ideella organisationer. Men det är alltid frivillgt, aldrig ett tvång att ge!

Simon Lindhlm undrar: Som följdfråga undrar jag varför Gud gav människan det sunda förnuftet, självbevarelsedriften och logiskt tänkande. Tre saker som motsäger sig religionen.

Jag svarar: Tja, en person med sunt förnuft skulle nog inte tro att en halvt öga inte är bra i överlevnads hänseende och skulle inte heller därför tro på evolutionen och på ett naturalistiskt alternativ utan skulle tro på Gud. Därför.

Och var är alla miljoner om inte miljarder mellan arter bland fossiler som skulle behövas för att evolutionen skulle vara sann? De flesta fossiler man hittar är av nu levande varelser? Sanningen är att de mesta talar mot makro evolution, mikro evolution finns dock. Mindre anpassningar inom arter för att passa in i nya miljöer.

Däremot tycker jag inte grupp ansvarig gav särskillt uttömande svar på din ursprungliga fråga om varför Gud behöver pengarna (jag menar jag tror du visste att verksamheten kostade pengar, så att påstå det var inget riktigt svar). Varför skulle Gud inte ge allt som kyrkan behöver så den inte behöver ta det från Kyrkans medlemmar ? Svaret är nog att Gud skapat världen med alla dess ramar för mänsklighetens begränsningar för att vi ska ställas inom valmöjligheter och utmaningar så att vi måste medvetet välja att göra något som kostar för att gå kärlekens väg, annars så skulle inte kärleken kosta något då skulle det inte va kärlek. Men när vi väl kommer till himlen har vi vår erfarenhet från jorden att luta oss på då har vi fått uppleva att kärleken kan kosta, men då vi bestått provet behöver vi inte längre prövas utan kan få vila ut. Men det inte sagt att Gud inte förser, när behoven är stora och när folk är honom trofast. Min vän "gick i tro" när hon satsade på projekt som inte skulle ge så mkt pengar men som hon visste va bra projekt då fick hon se att Gud förser när anonyma kuvert med pengar började dimpa ner i hennes brevlåda. En annan predikant fick va med om att hans limpa började växa och inte ta slut när han hade det knappert. (men han va blind o varför Gud inte helade honom vet man aldrig, så Guds vägar är outgrundliga för han sj var helande predikant) Men i vår svaghet så måste man förlita sig på Gud, det kan va svaret ibland. Han håller oss ödmjuka (om vi låter han) genom att allt inte är spikrakt.. Typ så..



Kristen FAQ - frequently asked questions for God?
Questions and (my) response from:

(Loosly translated by www.google.com/translate)

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stockholm-Sweden/STHLMs-fragor-till-Gud

Question: Why are there disasters?

(My additions: or other non-human-caused suffering as disease and accidents)

My answer:
For that suffering came into the world when we chose to go our own (o in many cases egotistical way) away from a relationship with God and His plan for us, then came the suffering in the world that we would be aware that we were on wrong path and to do justice. The wages of sin is death, it is in the Bible. So either we choose our death or the death of Jesus on the cross as hire purchase options on our debts (for our sins). Remember that God is holy and that all evil hates him even if it is in our eyes in small portions, if someone wanted to kill someone but not doing it because it is afraid of being punished is not as bad as murder someone, then the intent is exactly the same..? Have not we all hated people to the degree that we hated someone very mutch? Are we not all sinners? Do we really deserve heaven or life, when we do evil?

Question: Where were we before we were born?

My answer: Well, the return to traditional answer of Christianity is well that did not exist before they created. Review of the book Psalter in the Bible: "You knit me in the womb" Oh maybe it's a "sad" response if it wants muddling away but if you have any reason to believe that life existed before we were born .. I do not think so ..


Question of Simon Lindholm:
How is it that God needs money? (my remark: why do is there collections in church?)


Filadelfia church people respond:
STHLM's questions to God, God does not need a tensioner. God has everything he needs. But what you think of is that we are safe in the church often calls on people to give money. Why? For the Church does many things that require money. We have facilities that we gather in requiring maintenance. There are staff pastors who need to pay. We in Philadelphia have a large social work, both locally and globally in Stockholm around the world. Orphanages, work with abusers, etc. that require money. Therefore we ask people for money, just like many other nonprofit organizations. But there is always optional ones, never a compulsion to give!

Simon Lindhlm wonder: As a supplementary question, I wonder why God gave mankind the common sense, self-preservation and logical thinking. Three things that contradict their religion.

I answer: Well, a person with common sense would probably not believe that a half an eye is not good in terms of survival and would not therefore believe in evolution and a naturalistic alternative but to believe in God. Therefore.

And where are all the millions if not billions of species among the fossils that would be needed for that evolution to be true? Most of the fossils found are of living creatures? The truth is that they mostly speak against macro-evolution, micro-evolution, however. Minor changes within species to fit into new environments.

However, I do not think a group manager gave Especially voided answer your original question of why God needs the money (I mean I think you knew that the activity cost money, so to say there was no real answer). Why would God not give all that the Church needs so it does not need to take it from church members? The answer is probably that God created the world with all its frameworks for human limitations that we should be in the choices and challenges that we must consciously choose to do something that costs to go the way of love, otherwise you would not love cost anything then it would no love huh. But once we get to heaven, we have our experience from the earth to lean on when we have experienced that love can cost, but when we passed the test, we need no longer be considered but can get some rest. But that does not mean that God does not provide, when needs are great and when people are faithful to him. My friend went in faith "when she went for projects that would not give as mkt money but that she knew huh good project when she saw that God provides when anonymous envelope with the money began to plump in her mailbox. Another preacher got huh agree that his limp began to grow and not take over when he where poor. (But he was blind and why God did not heal him, you never know, so God's ways are unfathomable to him sj was healing preacher) But in our weakness, you have to rely on God, the answer may vary at times. He keeps us humble (if we let him) by not letting everything go straight for us.. And sometimes he can have other reasons, we don't know about, he is God he is sometimes above our understanding..

Things that leave a mark

Watch this in HQ if you can! Thought provoking video! Brilliant!

WHAT CAUSED OUR EXCISTENCE DUDE?

In Sweden -and Stockholm in particular - where I've grown up the consensus is that: just stupid people believe in God. Thats the general opinion in 2nd the most atheistic country in the world. Thank Him (God) it's not the case in other countries.. where the people aren't just bullied in to believing the false/illogic belief of Atheism.

Dearest atheists of the world I dare proclaim that you guy s's shared world view is deeply flawed, and very improbable, if not to say illogic.

My nature science teacher back in high school said the cause of Big Bang was the unbalance in matter and antimatter. I couldn't help but wonder - how could they teach this "bullsh**t". And I asked him that in class; where did unbalance come from - if nothing existed?

We don't know he said. Yet he remained a deeply convicted atheist. And tried to assure all his pupils of the importance of believing in what he viewed was the most "scientific view Naturalism, that mater is all there is, and that is what have caused us.

You could respond to my question and say that whatever was before the Big Bang was strictly physical eternal energy.

But could there really be an eternal naturalistic universe eternally old? How would that kind of universe work? An universe like that would demand that an infinite amount of things would have happened before now and that's not possible and here is the detailed explanation:

To showcase the problem of this thinking - how could there ever be an eternal line of domino bricks - standing in line - falling all the way until now?

There couldn't be:
1. Firstly nothing can cause the first domino brick to fall/move.

2.AND IN ADDITION TO THAT THERE ARE NO FIRST BRICK IF IT'S AN ETERNAL CHAIN there would always be a brick that was previous to the one you think is the first one and even that makes no sense.

"If you'd come closer you'd always see a domino brick standing lurking back in the shadows of the one you thought was the last domino brick. And think of it what a universe would that be? It would be a universe where it was impossible to count a distinguished domino bricks place (oh, that domino brick is the 2milliont 21st) ? So it's not logically possible."

3. And todays science is in fact quite sure that time has come in to existence "at a certain point in time" (at Big Bang actually) - it has not always existed AND BIG BANG in fact STARTED TIME. So what on earth can physically happen/excist before there where no time? Nothing that we know about at least and for sure not something that is in progress/transformation/is changing.

Some people respond to the things abow with the proposition: that maybe there could have been a causal force that made the universe form which where of a nature that was/is in a infinite form and not finite form or divided in to happenings. This force they say could rather be an eternal happening that always has existed - an ongoing undivided causal force - and not a chain of separate causal events that created us. The problem is with this theory that this universe is finite, and all the natural forces and happenings we know of is finite and transfers in steps between different energy levels or position (or what have you) there is no sutch thing as an infitite force in this finite universe. All we can see is distinct diverse happenings!

So face it atheist, that hypothesis is also out ruled. So all the Naturalist/atheistic options of belief of the forming of the universe is impossible. Atheism is not a choice for someone who wants to rely on real logics. There is no really satisfactory way to explain the beginning of the universe in an (naturalistic) atheistic manner.


There must be a God who flicked his finger and started the chain of Domino Bricks to fall! There must be an "almighty flicker of point finger"-er! The alpha and Oh-maker! And i think he loves us! And this is why:

-He made the cute little kittens!

-And the flowers of spring! And he gave us the beauty sense to appreciate it which would be impossible for evolution to procure (at least in it's own - without God)!



-And the ability for love, laugh,




So ofcourse he loves us, all the people in the world should be able to see that (Even if bad things happen too.. but it's so clear that God doesn't want that to happen then he wouldn't have blessed us with all those other things mentioned! And there's an endless list of other things to mention! I promise more on the topic later on the mystery of God being good and all powerful and still letting evil stuff happen/be in the world.. The short answer is: God lets evil happen cause he gave us a free will and we humans let it happen!

So You should be glad and not dismayed by the fact that God created us! There is a God and he loves You, things even point towards that he even died for You; on the cross as the man Jesus of Nazareth! Wiping away all our guilt slates clean on the cross!! (But more on that later in a later blog-post!)

I know that God is real - I have even met God myself! As a warmth for instance! And I have to urge you to get to know him send him some prayers and give him your life it's the best thing You could do! You won't regret it!